Day 30 - A photograph of youself today + three good things that have happened in the past 30 days

Webcam pictures make me laugh. Especially when it looks like my head is photoshopped onto my body :-p

And my three good things:
1. I did Zumba for the first time  with Sarah and Mel last night and I LURVED it! Totally worth the sore body :)
2. In the past 30 days I've crocheted two stars, and at least 6 beanies. And more to come!
3. I've done a great job so far dealing with Matt being gone. Sure, it's only been a few days and feels like forever, but I'm confident :)

Day 29 - Something you could never get tired of doing.

Snuggles with my man ♥

dream

Ok I need to get this dream down before I forget.

Basically Matt and I (and everyone, actually) was back in Greek times. But things were still modern. And for some reason Matt was in this cave by the ocean and got attacked by this really weird monster thing that stabbed him and killed him. (mind you when this part of the dream started it was just me watching a legit dvd movie, then it turned to reality).

I was miserable. Absolutely heartbroken. I would be ok until I'd get back from work and then I would just start sobbing. And the guys I was living with did not help the situation at all. I remember calling my MIL crying and sobbing and being like, "How are you dealing with this? I can't do it." And she was basically in the same boat. So we went to find out what exactly happened to Matt.

We talked to invertebrates (like snails and whatnot) to find the answer. And some ladies in a weird little shop. Turns out there was a way to turn back time. So we did, and I found Matt just in time to scream at him and warn him that he was walking into a trap. He broke free before the monsters could get him and came safe into my arms. At that point I was crying in relief and so happy!

The dream ended with me reading all of this in a book that had really cool stamps and colored text and whatnot.

SO glad it's over though... what a nightmare!

Day 28 - Your favorite movie.

This is another tough one. I don't really have many favorites. So for right now, I'll go with what pops into my head first:

Day 27 - A picture of you last year and now and how have you changed since then?

Last year, 2/18/10:

This is right before the TMO brief about moving to NC. Matt was in IOC, I was working in DC, and wondering why the heck all the wives already had cliques and didn't want to let people in!

And this year 2/20/11:

I now live in NC, no job yet, hubs is with 2nd LAR, I have two cats (peaches shown), I'm not smoking and am using whitening strips at the moment to help get my teeth less stained from all the smoking!

Day 26 - A photo of somewhere you’ve been to.

Australia. I miss it. So. Freaking. Much.

Day 25 - What’s in your purse?

I'm too lazy to take a picture. Sorry, folks! Buuut, here it is:

lip smacker lip gloss
3 types of chapstick
keys
spare change (well that's going away after this post so I can put it in my jars)
wallet
2 mini hair clips
last week's sermon guide
calendar and stamps
orbit gum
peppermint hand lotion
two types of antibacterial gell
tylenol, ibuprofen, and anti-shits meds
memo pad
pens and a pencil
sunglasses
eyedrops
compact mirror
the damn expensive cat food prescription card

Day 24 - A photo of something that means a lot to you.

The latest picture of the two of us. Wish the photographer had gotten an ACTUAL candid, but this pic means a lot because of 1) how I met my husband and 2) how much I luuuuurve my husband. And below is me having fun with picnik :)

Day 23 - 15 facts about you.

1. I'm terrified of the dentist.
2. Sushi is an addiction for me.
3. I know I'm going to relapse smoking, I just don't know when... one day at a time right now.
4. Deployment scares me.
5. I have sleep issues.
6. I love to crochet.
7. I want a job, but I don't want to have to settle for something I don't really enjoy doing.
8. I'm excited to go to Nevada for the first time!
9. I miss my family and want to visit, but I wonder if I'm actually missed enough to warrant me spending all my money to visit.
10. I don't bite my nails, but I pick at them constantly.
11. My husband is my personal superhero. It's kind of awesome.
12. I want to get into a workout routine but I suck at it.
13. I could drink wine all day long.
14. My cats are awesome.
15. I suck at these 15 facts, I can never think of cool things!

Day 22 - A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.

To she that shall not be named:

Seriously?! I mean... FREAKING SERIOUSLY?!?!! For one thing, how DARE you be so judgmental of a place you've never been and people you ever know. Secondly, how DARE you be so judgmental to me?! And not even to my face, you have to talk to other family members and make assumptions without even asking me about it at ALL?

Guess what. Your assumptions are wrong. Hope you're oh so glad you lost a LOT of trust in me to tell you anything, considering I don't talk to you about something and you spread shit behind my back.

Oh yea and one more thing.

As much as you have always been a judgmental person, you were one of the LAST people I expected to judge me so harshly. It hurt. It still stings. How about you take your own advice some time and NOT say what you're thinking???

Love,

Emmers

Day 21 - A photo of something that makes you happy.

Crocheting mixed with a bit of photography. I love doing it! Just have to take breaks so I don't get carpal tunnel :-p What makes me even HAPPIER is the cutest triplets will be wearing those minnie hats for their first birthdays, and also the star has 7 more rows on it, and more to go! :-D

Day 20 - The meaning behind your blog name.

Well, I originally started it as a place to vent. Which I still do something, but i've found there is more. "Ratchit fratchit" basically means "fuckin a!" Just in nicer terms :)

Day 19 - Another picture of yourself.

This is the most recent one that I like! At a wine tasting party :)

Day 18 - Something you crave a lot.

So. Many. Things.

Sushi.

Wine. All sorts.

Crab Rangoons.

Brenner. And human interaction in general.

God.

Babies. Like these three favorites of mine!

And of COURSE cuddle time with animals :)

Day 17 - A photo of you and your family.

Here are a few :)

Me, Faith, Bethy, and Gary :)

Me, Matty, Mom and Dad!

Me, Matty, and Bethy! 

The last picture I think I have of the three of us. And Caleb as an itty bitty!!!

Day 16 - Your celebrity crush.

I have to choose just one??? That's bull!
So since we are currently obsessed with these two shows, these are my two crushes:

Ok so I love all the guys and may have girl crushes on the chicks in Bones....

And I love me some Cappie :)

Day 15 - Something you don’t leave the house without.

I can leave home without my purse if I'm just going to visit a friend down the road, but I never leave my phone!

Day 14 - A TV show you’re currently addicted to.

I. ♥. Them.

And we just finished season 3. For those "Boners" (haha I just thought of it, I kind of love the name :-p) out there, I already miss that one character that goes at the end!!!

Day 13 - Your favorite musician and why?

Too many to choose from. Sorry.

Day 12 - A photograph of the town you live in.

Of Jville? Of Camp Lejeune?

I'll do one of my sunset skies pics, which is actually across the street from me. Basically on base it's brick buildings, housing, and oh, did I mention the beach? :)

Day 11 - What’s in your makeup bag?

Ha this is easy... I don't OWN a makeup bag! I have a toiletry bag I fill with stuff when I'm gone, the normal eyeliner, shadow, blush, foundation, brushes, etc. But I don't have a makeup bag. My makeup is actually in really nasty zebra print clothed baskets on my dresser :-p

Day 10 - A photo of our favorite place to eat.

Oh goodness. This is actually tough! I'll go with the sushi place down here! I sadly don't have a picture I've taken of it, but a generic picture will have to do! And why yes, the picture DOES suck... maybe next time I'm in the area I'll get a better one :-p

Day 9 - A photo of the item you last purchased.

Woohooooo, new shoes and bag! I had 30 dollars credit for nomorerack.com (here's my referral link, check it out and register! http://www.nomorerack.com/?cr=34479). Both the flats and purse were originally 70 bucks each. nomorerack.com had them total to 28 dollars for me. And it's only 2 dollars shipping per item. So the total came to 32 dollars. So I piad TWO DOLLARS for these!!!!

Now to get used to a large purse...

why does it seem...

That even though I have so much love and support and fun times to give, but nobody seems to want it?

This is something I've been thinking about for awhile. Hell, sort of for my whole life. I love people (for the most part). I love sharing experiences, laughs, hugs, good times and hard. I just feel lately that.. well that noone cares. That everyone already has their own people, even add more people, and that I'm just left in the dust.

I was wondering if I was overreacting at first. That maybe it was pms, nicotine withdrawal, or lack of sleep. But the more I think about it, the more I realize just how alone I am most of the time.

And I don't know why. Did I do something???

And don't get me wrong, people still respond to things. But it's as though I'm never the person someone goes to at first. Sigh. Depressing post done! Time to figure out why this is happening or why I feel this way!

Day 8 – A song to match your mood.

Huh... this is an interesting one.
I'm still tired. Exhausted. The meds that are supposed to help with the nightmares SORT of have... I don't nightmares any, just REALLY weird strange intense dreams... boo! Anywho, here's my mood. I'm sleepy and want to go back to bed already :-p