A few questions survey

Thanks, Molly :)

1. Are you a night owl or an early bird?
Right now? Neither. I'm constantly tired. MORE of an early bird than a night owl though.

2. What makes you jealous?
People who don't have to suffer at all. Yea, it can teach life lesson, but those that are grateful for what they hvae and don't need pain to learn it... I want that!

3. Have you started Christmas/holiday shopping yet? When will you finish? (There’s only 63 days left!)
Yep! And who knows when I''ll finish.

4. What would you have a personal chef make you tonight?
Sushi. Every day. Every. Single. Day.

5. Where was your first kiss?
Physics lounge of the new Science Center at Exeter. That guy had me slobbered on ALL over my face. Nasty!

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I want my anxiety to go away. Part of me loves that I'm a worrier, since it shows how much I care for those I care about. But I take it to the extremes. And I'm so sick of that. I don't want to live in a constant panic that something is going to happen somewhere to someone. Because it will. And worrying won't stop it, or let me know who what where it will happen. Boo.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I'd have a baby! I'd be excited, although at this point if I got pregnant, I'd be having the baby without Matt here, so that would be scary. But I'd still be excited :-p

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

I can't say life???? Haha the only thing that would be more perfect about it would be the war called off and me having a part time job that could fit all my extra volunteer stuff too.

I LOVE how many people I'm meeting! I love the connections I'm able to make with people. The afghan I'm making. The smiles I'm sharing. The volunteering and connecting with the Battalion. Wow, I didn't say my absolutely amazing husband first??? Shocking, I know :-p But hey, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here at Camp Lejeune. I'd be in DC working the same desk job with yes, amazing people, but a dead end job nonetheless. He's led me to so many more opportunities. Haha fewer JOB opportunities, but more opportunities in LIFE! And I love it :) So yes. Life is the best thing going for me right now :)

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Sort of. I became SUPER depressed sophomore year at Gettysburg. To the point where I didn't care. I didn't want to end my life, but I probably wouldn't have cared if I got hit by a bus, that sort of thing. It was terrifying. I knew I shouldn't feel that way. Turns out it was the pill. Add to that an asshole boyfriend who was pledging a frat, and it was a BAD mix. I'm so glad I'm out of that part of my life. I still have anxiety like crazy, but it's so much more in control and I'm HAPPY!

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Skipping the above. It bores me. But the reason I'm still alive today is because of common sense, I believe. I was raised with a lot of it! I can't really think of anything else, since I haven't been suicidal at all, so there's nothing that saved me from that.

I'm sure glad I'm here, let me tell you :)

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Done an entire year in Australia. That would have been amaaaazing! I miss that place so much. Otherwise, I wish I had been smarted with my money in college. Getting out of that debt was no fun, and it means now that it'll take longer to get out of the student loan debt. Boo.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I wish I had never started smoking. That it my only true regret. I'm past three months quit and still struggling every day to not go buy a pack!

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Holy crap I missed a few days! No catch up, just skipping that time, pretending it didn't happen :)

So yes. If my best friend got into a car accident and we had just fought, I still wouldn't invite that bitch to my birthday party!

Give me a break. I hope I'd be the first person she'd call. If not, I'd be by her side the second I could. Fights are meant to get over!

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Hmmm. I think it depends on the drug and then the person who is using it. And that only goes for the lighter drugs. Cocaine, heroine, ecstasy, etc. are HUGE no-nos. They're just too addictive and mess with you WAY too much.

Pot? I've seen people use it just fine and be normal, and I have the ex who used it to escape constantly.

Alcohol? The same thing. The ex became verbally abusive, I know other mean drunks, but drinking and having fun and being pleasant is all good by me!

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Religion - It fascinates me. I don't have a strong faith in anything, although I believe that there is something up there. I love studying the different religions; I love seeing the differences and even more importantly, the similarities! It freaks me out but amazes me that cultish religions are able to start. I love it all!

Politics - Keep me away, please. It's too dirty.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Go for it. Yep. That's it.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Trumpet of the Swans.

Barely anyone has heard of it, but I thought the story of a trumpeter swan that is mute and learns to read and write to communicate with humans to be amazing! That was one of the things that started me off in thinking about the personalities of animals, and also me wanting a scenario like that to be true. :)

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

OMGGGGGGGGGG don't get me started on ignorant people. I can totally stand to live without people without common sense. It is ridiculous! That is all, although i could rage for hours.

And fake people. I could live without them too.

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

I've lived through everything being gone. So no, there is nothing, short of water, food, and air, that I can't live without.

In a broader cliche sense? The hubby for sure. I have to live without him for weeks at a time. Come next year it will be for more than half the year. It's so hard without him here. And yes, I survive. And yes, I have happy days. But everything is better when he's around. :)

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Huh. I legit can't think of anyone. Maybe Lance Armstrong for being awesome and then turning against his family and dating Sheryl Crow. Just seems weird to me to leave the ones who supported you the most through the tough times. Otherwise, I have no idea right now. If I think of something, I'll come back to this!

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Dear Peter, Paul, and Mary (RIP),

While I don't necessarily listen to your music DURING hard times, being brought up singing your wonderful folk songs, laughing hysterically to Paul's jokes and voices, watching your PBS specials... It has made a difference in my life. You taught me to use hammers and bells and songs to better my life, and to always look on the bright side of things.

And I do know that if I'm down, I can stick on the Campfire cds that I have and be cheerier right away.

So thank you. I think I owe you some of my sanity (if I have any, right???).

Love,

Emmers