A few questions survey

Thanks, Molly :)

1. Are you a night owl or an early bird?
Right now? Neither. I'm constantly tired. MORE of an early bird than a night owl though.

2. What makes you jealous?
People who don't have to suffer at all. Yea, it can teach life lesson, but those that are grateful for what they hvae and don't need pain to learn it... I want that!

3. Have you started Christmas/holiday shopping yet? When will you finish? (There’s only 63 days left!)
Yep! And who knows when I''ll finish.

4. What would you have a personal chef make you tonight?
Sushi. Every day. Every. Single. Day.

5. Where was your first kiss?
Physics lounge of the new Science Center at Exeter. That guy had me slobbered on ALL over my face. Nasty!

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

I want my anxiety to go away. Part of me loves that I'm a worrier, since it shows how much I care for those I care about. But I take it to the extremes. And I'm so sick of that. I don't want to live in a constant panic that something is going to happen somewhere to someone. Because it will. And worrying won't stop it, or let me know who what where it will happen. Boo.

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I'd have a baby! I'd be excited, although at this point if I got pregnant, I'd be having the baby without Matt here, so that would be scary. But I'd still be excited :-p

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

I can't say life???? Haha the only thing that would be more perfect about it would be the war called off and me having a part time job that could fit all my extra volunteer stuff too.

I LOVE how many people I'm meeting! I love the connections I'm able to make with people. The afghan I'm making. The smiles I'm sharing. The volunteering and connecting with the Battalion. Wow, I didn't say my absolutely amazing husband first??? Shocking, I know :-p But hey, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be here at Camp Lejeune. I'd be in DC working the same desk job with yes, amazing people, but a dead end job nonetheless. He's led me to so many more opportunities. Haha fewer JOB opportunities, but more opportunities in LIFE! And I love it :) So yes. Life is the best thing going for me right now :)

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Sort of. I became SUPER depressed sophomore year at Gettysburg. To the point where I didn't care. I didn't want to end my life, but I probably wouldn't have cared if I got hit by a bus, that sort of thing. It was terrifying. I knew I shouldn't feel that way. Turns out it was the pill. Add to that an asshole boyfriend who was pledging a frat, and it was a BAD mix. I'm so glad I'm out of that part of my life. I still have anxiety like crazy, but it's so much more in control and I'm HAPPY!

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Skipping the above. It bores me. But the reason I'm still alive today is because of common sense, I believe. I was raised with a lot of it! I can't really think of anything else, since I haven't been suicidal at all, so there's nothing that saved me from that.

I'm sure glad I'm here, let me tell you :)

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Done an entire year in Australia. That would have been amaaaazing! I miss that place so much. Otherwise, I wish I had been smarted with my money in college. Getting out of that debt was no fun, and it means now that it'll take longer to get out of the student loan debt. Boo.