I have to forgive myself for being stupid. For falling for lies. But above all, and this encompasses all of the above, for not loving myself enough to realize my self worth. I let someone walk all over me. Hell, during that time, I let a LOT of people walk all over me! I loved and gave all I had and was blindsided for some reason by the lack of anything coming back.
I am so glad that is no longer me. That now I'm able to only give as much as I can without getting any back. Then I step aside. If friends or lovers (well, not lovers anymore. Hubby is beyond amazing at loving me back equally if not more) want to give, I'll shower them. But not until. And I love that this ACTUALLY WORKED with two people! They were ubder standoffish with me at first, and now they're friendly, nice, and I love spreading the love. :)
But yes. Back to the point.
Emily, I forgive you for not treasuring your many values, your heart, and yourself. You have learned, and as long as you don't go back to that, I won't have to kick your ass! :)